SHE DID IT! SHE CAN CRAWL!! I officially have a little mover on my hands. What she lacks in speed and agility, she makes up for in sheer determination. If she sees something she wants, she goes for it. She may topple over a few times; it may take her awhile to get to where she wants to go, but she WILL get there. And she doesn’t get frustrated- she just keeps reaching and wiggling and smiling and squealing until she reaches her goal.

I can’t tell you how happy this makes me. If I had the resources to do it, I would throw a parade in her honour. There were times when I honestly didn’t think this would ever happen- like when she was over a year old and still couldn’t sit up on her own. And her newfound mobility has given me so much hope for her future; hope that someday, she may at least have a quasi-independent life. Obviously, there is still a lot we don’t know about what her abilities will be or what problems she will face in the future, but this accomplishment of hers has quieted my fears and worries for the moment.

I am just so proud of my girl. Watching her as she learned to move has taught me that with enough time, perseverance, patience, and love, anything is possible. I am now reflecting on what dreams and goals I have for myself- dreams that I previously dismissed as unrealistic or impractical don’t seem quite so out of reach anymore. Maybe I can go back to school and further my education one day. Maybe I can get serious about my writing and work toward getting published one day. Maybe these things don’t have to be mere fantasies. If Penelope, despite her physical limitations, can get herself moving, then so can I. I will just have to keep reaching as I inch toward my goal.

I hope everyone can take a page out of Penelope’s book. Don’t give up. Reach for what you want. Pick yourself up when you stumble. Even if your progress is slow and awkward, keep moving forward until your goal is met. And don’t forget to beam with pride at your accomplishment when you are done.



A New Goal

Several months ago, I wrote about setting a fitness goal for myself: to do a 5k run in May. As it turns out, this is not going to happen… because I have signed up to do a 10k run instead! Yes, at the urging of my colleague and friend, Heather (who has a kick-ass crafting blog that you should check out), I have decided to double the distance and am running in the Sporting Life 10k here in Toronto on Mother’s Day.

This is not because I just love running so much that I absolutely had to run further than I had originally planned- quite the opposite, in fact. I do not enjoy running. At all. After setting the 5k goal for myself, I started running on the treadmill at the gym. At first, it was okay. But within a few weeks, my joints were aching, I was on the verge of hobbling around like an old lady, I’d nearly vomited several times from overdoing my water consumption during the run, and I’d had enough. So I stopped the running regimen, and went back to doing cardio activities I actually enjoyed.

I truly don’t understand people who like running. Why? What is the appeal? It is painful and you can’t breathe and you can’t even take a drink of water without choking or having it slosh around in your stomach. My dad is a runner- he regularly runs 20-30 km. At ONE time. And he loves it! And unlike his penchant for sarcasm, I did not inherit that trait from him.

I know I don’t sound all that enthusiastic about doing this run, but I am actually looking forward to it. Well, I’m looking forward to crossing the finish line, at least. I know I have enough endurance for it- I work out frequently, with plenty of intense cardio activities in my gym routine. And it’s only when I run on a regular basis that my joints get achy, so I think for this isolated event, I will be fine. And I’m running with a bunch of nurses, so if I get injured or have a heart attack, I will be surrounded plenty of health care professionals to help me.

Now, the Sporting Life 10k run raises money to send kids with cancer to camp- that’s a pretty great cause! If you able to, please consider donating to this organization. Click here¬†for the link to my fundraising page for the run. Even a $5 donation is appreciated!

IMG_7663So here I am: the fittest I’ve been in about ten years, and ready to run my ass off. Bring it on, 10k!